I’ve been ‘on the road’ again since I left Townsville on 19th July. And since I had that ‘burn out’ moment I spoke of in last week’s blog post I’ve watched the lessons flood in as I go from one workshop to the next, and one town to the next. Whilst it is less than ideal from a resting perspective to spend two days in one place and then two in the next and so on, I have certainly been learning a lot (aaaand catching up with so many of my closest friends whom I rarely see in person, which has been gorgeous).
By visiting and staying with these friends I’ve been in a key position to notice my current behaviours and practise asking for (or just giving myself) what I need. I’ve been finding that it’s so easy to get swept up in the excitement of being with others I love and doing all the things that I realise to live this way for the time being is a perfect way to practise. And I say ‘practise’ because it is an ongoing behaviour that I’m learning.
It’s not easy, but I’ve certainly put myself in a great environment to learn as I travel from one conscious friend’s home to another, and discover what my needs are. With these friends I feel safe to ask for time out to be alone, or simply to just take it. They don’t freak out or take it personally, or get upset. They get it; we all need alone time. And even when I express my desire to sleep more than most people they don’t tell me there must be something ‘wrong with me’, but rather they just notice and leave me to it.
It’s a relief to be with people who let me be me and don’t expect me to be like them.
And it’s all part of my process of stripping back that childhood conditioning that told me who I ‘should’ be, and to notice step by step, conversation by conversation, from one town to the next, who it is that I truly am. To experience for myself ‘who I was born to be’ (as Human Design shows me so clearly) and to get the chance to live that.
This freedom is a blessing, and I’m grateful. Very grateful.
And now, I think it’s time for a walk around the streets of Noosa… my current ‘home’ until it’s not 😉
P.S. How are you going with finding the person you were born to be? Are you in close relationship with people who allow or even help you to find and be yourself? If not, what is one thing you can do today to help you step towards that?