As the weather heats up and Summer Solstice approaches, as Christmas lights decorate streets and pine trees decorate lounge rooms in homes all around Australia, and as the end of another year draws near I find myself reflecting on what has been an extraordinarily big year.
On a personal front, I looked after dogs, cats and chickens (that I totally adored!) as well as some very different sized and shaped houses in Sydney, Melbourne, the Gold Coast and Townsville. I spent more time on the beach this “winter” than I ever have before. #MyKindOfHeaven
I trained for an epic 43.5 km run on some of the toughest terrain NSW (& perhaps Australia) has to offer only to discover that this nifty little Blue Mountains route would take us a full 10 hours of moving. #SoMuchLongerThanAStandardMarathon
My training saw me make many new friends and run in parts of Sydney my feet had never seen before, break new personal records for both my half marathon time as well as the Sydney Tower Stair Climbing run and participate in an epic trip to the Snowy Mountains for the most running I’ve ever done in three consecutive days. #FuckItWasBeautiful
I met men, who treated me less well than the way I would hope to be treated. Again and again and again. Those lessons were hard, and each time I took a long hard look at my own beliefs and what kind of messed up stuff I still believed in order to be attracting men who would so grossly disrespect my body and disregard me. #ThisIsAWorkInProgress
When I heard news through Facebook that Wayan, my “Bali Mum” had passed away – her long term battle with breast cancer beating her, I said goodbye in my heart and mind, and badly yearned for Bali home again for the upteenth time since leaving over 18 months ago. #BaliIWillReturnSoon
I also said goodbye to my dear Old Oma (dutch grandmother) who did well getting to 87 with all the trials and tribulations she had navigated in those years. Whilst sad, this was less of a shock, as I had been deliberately saying a mindful goodbye every time I went to visit her over the last year. #SheLivesOnInMe
I won a Club Contest at Toastmasters and completed my Competent Communicator Award (which requires the writing and delivering of 10 unique speeches), and all that public speaking helped me brave the stage at the Bankstown Poetry Slam several times which I shared some fairly vulnerable, edgy poetry out loud to an audience of often over 200 people. #IDigSpokenPoetry
On the business front (although one is so inextricably linked with the other it almost seems folly to separate them):
I studied more courses online (Quantum Physics anyone?) and attended workshops live in person. I learnt powerful lessons even from the teachers and coaches I’ve since decided to leave behind. I came to learn that every person has something to teach me along my journey, even if we don’t see eye to eye on a great many things. And they only served to greater reinforce for me how vitally important Human Design is as a tool and that I must share it with as many people as possible. #TeachersEverywhere
Thus I began to ramp up my work with teaching and sharing the Human Design Basics, especially as they pertain to business, because I got so sick of seeing amazing healers, therapists, facilitators and coaches by all names struggling with the cookie cutter business and marketing advice being sprouted all over the internet. I realised again how intensely important and liberating this work is. #ILoveHumanDesignBasics
I had breakthrough after breakthrough in my 1:1 conversations (as a client) including notably with a series of 8 Spiritual Counselling Sessions with a woman in the US. In the first session I cried and cried and cried. I don’t even know what I was letting go of, and by the end of those sessions, several months later, I had dropped into my soul in a way I didn’t know was possible and became more present to my reason for being here on the planet than ever before. #SoulWork
And I served so many clients who, in their own way and through their own questions, helped shape me into a better coach, a better woman and a better human. #ClientsAreMyGreatestTeachers
I feel like I could go on and on and on, but to save you reading an essay worthy of Homer I shall pause and summarise.
In 2017, I had hardships at times so intense I could not navigate them alone, even with all the tools I have. For those times I wish to thank my dearest friends who did a better job of holding, loving and guiding me than most of the coaches and counsellors I know could ever do.
I had breakthroughs, supported by both humans who were wise and loving, as well as tools like Human Design, FasterEFT and a great many others. For those times I wish to thank those brave enough to have brought the tools to the greater community, and continue to share them despite the push back they would have received.
I experienced joy and pleasure and fascination through going on adventures and exploring and honouring what my soul calls play. For these times I wish to thank my adventurous buddies who were willing to swing on swings, walk on beaches and trudge through autumn snow when we were there to run up mountains.
I deepened my friendships with existing and then new friends to a point where I feel safe now saying pretty much anything at all to a solid handful of people who I know will hold me and love me in my messiness. For this I wish to thank myself, for it is the work I’ve done to practise being vulnerable, for mindfully listening and holding space, and for consistently staying in contact that has allowed these gorgeous humans to come into my life, and stay.
I prepare to leave now to leave 2017 a better human, a more loving, kind, brave, open woman than I was when it began. And in hindsight, that seems like a pretty good way to spend a year.
May you have a wonder-filled, joyful and safe Solstice, Christmas and New Year’s eye, as you too say goodbye to the year that was and make room for a bright, shiny New Year in 2018.
P.S. If you haven’t taken time yet to reflect on your year and see just how far you’ve come, please do take a day, a few hours, or even 15 minutes if that’s all you can squeeze in. You may be astonished at just how much you’ve achieved and grown.